Week 5: Happy Freaking Birthday America!!

From: Abigail Tucker <abigail.tucker@myldsmail.net>
Date: July 4, 2018 at 6:54:55 AM MST
Subject: HAPPY FREAKING BIRTHDAY AMERICA!!!

Oh my gosh oh my gosh its America birthday !!!! 

For all you who dont know I absolutely LOVE birthdays, mine is a month long celebration soo birthdays are a big deal to me and in general my merca love is strong but especially with going to heritage and the fact that our mascot is pretty much America 10 TIMES THE FACT I FREAKING LOVE AMERICA !!!! so you could say this is one of my fave holidays and you would most defentaly be 100% correct on that front!!!!

So yes yes happy birthday to this beautiful country we are so blessed to live in!!!

But Americas birthdy on the side this week ..

Well a couple of PSA's I'd like to say about this week 

First this week marked a year form me getting chlorine posing so wot wot I am a survivor 

And second tomorrow will mark my homie Jacob passey or as ruby calles him passey 

ONE YEAR ON A MISSON MARK ... tomorrow!!!!

That's a big deal yall !!!! 

Any ways ok so this week so it wasn't a bad week beciae remember NO BAD DAYS NO BAD WEEKS ... only slow or hard are happy or what ever emotion you can think of but bad will not be in my vocabulary except when it comes to UT mexcan food I'm sorry but that is just bad ... that I can stay is so so bad bahahaha

But ok so I hate hate hate looking week or incapable or not strong enough to do something that's probably at the top of my list of things I hate ...

And this week I felt all those things.

This week was crazy crazy hard for me and I'm not quite shore why but it was. Tear jerking heart braking hard. I miss home I miss my family I miss my friends I miss Arizona heat and all !! I miss everyone and everything and I am feeling hecka unproductive and multiple times the thought why dont you just go home ran across my mind. But than  Immediately after I heard some one else's voice I heard the voice of my favorite aunt kara and she said TUCKERS DONT QUIT !!! TUCKERS WORK HARD !! TUCKERS ARE THE FIRST ONES THERE AND THE LAST ONE TO LEAVE !!! TUCKERS DONT QUIT !!! 

SO how could you have the thought of quitting after aunt kara is saying oh no you dont sooo I just sat there in my mind bog of THIS IS HARD WHAT AM I SUPOSED TO DOOOOOOO 

This was littray my mind set like all week you choud say I saw on a touch of survivor mode all week. Eventually Sunday I had to email my mom yes yes I know it's not p day sheesh but I needed to talk to some one so i spilled my guts and i Haha felt quite a bet better after that.and mu mom gave me a good kid  Presdent style pep talk and then she must have or the spirit called in the troops becise mu email and face book messenger was filled with love and super from evey corner of my life and my heart was so full I could have swim in it . I was overwellmed with all the love that people reached out with. 

But even with all the love I felt like something was missing. Something that I have been truly struggling with while lol my 2 whole weeks lol the longest and shortest 2 weeks of my life NO JOKE  .. is the fact that I haven't felt like my self and then with that missing home right... my 2 big problems. But the lord is so good to me who am I kidding the lord is so good to us. So last night some of the elders were comming by to drop off some mail for us and i was suntan i had a letter i was like come ONNNN MAIL MAN I knew it I knew I had a letter ... and they came with our mail anddddddd no no letter 

But

There was a package addressed to me and I was like WAHTTT i wasn't expecting a package and I looked who it was from and it was from mrs Lauren Santana ( one of my most favorite friends ) and I was like heck to freaking YESSSS 

AND I plopped that bad boy right on the floor and ripped it open... and in it Lauren and jess had carefully and full of all the live in there hearts out together a greenie package for me. Ans pulling out each of the litte threshers they put in this grean fox of love I was littraly hit with a wall of home. Now that sounds funny but for the first time in my misson I felt like home was with me on my apartment living room floor !! I started to just cry and my comp and the elders are like way are you crying and I was like becise this is home. 

Ans I was just felt I littraly at that moment felt everyone's prayers for me I felt my family's live for me I felt the love form those at home and those who have passed on I felt there strength and I felt so much love and I felt so much home!!! Home YALL I FELT HOME !! LITTRALY HEVENY FATHER IS THE BEST !!!! 

so then with ne feeling with my self again and still going strong may I add. I am re commiting my self to find those who are looking for this love re comming mu self to give my whole heart to this work! And to get it the struggle buss .. wich in matter if fact I'm pretty shore I have

Been driving that buss for like 2 weeks and get on the LOVE TRAIN !! And for all of you who got that reference a round of applause and for all you who didn't get it well call up my sweet ruby and I'm sure she'd make time in her very bissey  Schedule with dance parts and breakfast cookies to make time to watch trolls holiday with you ... it's kinda her jam !!! 

But PEOPLE ALL OVER THE WORLD 

JOIN HANDS 

START A LOVE TRAIN 

A LOVE TRAIN !!!!

guys this week is going to be way better I can tottay feel it in my bones plus this week has America's birthday in it so how can it NOT be better is the question I ask ?!? 

I literally love you all with my whole heart and soul!! And pray for you all 

D I'm so pumped your home form your misson 

And Mason I'm so so so pumped for you to leave soon !!!

Some one for goodness sakes pleas bo swimming for me !!! And soda shop and and and boca ohhh mexcan food !!!!

Oh oh oh and blow something up for me #happybirthdayamerica 

But I love you all so much!! 

I feel your prayers more then you know !! 

And your letters and emails no joke brighten my day so keep them comming !! 

Love you all 

And as ruby woud say 

CIAO !!!

-SISTER TUCKER 

- Moroni 8:3